One of the things about being a part of a blogging couple is that you have a tendency to know how far you can push a joke, how much you can say, how much of the embarrassing past (or present) you can dredge up to make a point. But one of the parts of being a blogging couple - at least in my opinion - is that you still ask yourself how the other is going to react when they see something potentially painful. Or awkward. Or embarrassing.
The second after The Tell Tale Fart Will knew I was going to write about it. Any moment when the tears or streaming down our cheeks from laughter, we know it's going to be shared. It's not that we feel the need to parade every second of ourselves past the computer screen. It's that we simply cannot pass up a good story.
There are many moments that don't get shared, not because they're not good or funny or timely, but just because they don't fit in anywhere. But that's okay. Not everything needs to make it here.
The other night I was getting ready for bed a few hours past Will. I'm working on rewriting an old screenplay. It's not so much a rewrite as I'm taking the central idea and throwing away everything else. I can't decide whether to start from scratch or try to piece together the remains, so I spend a lot of time looking at the computer screen and looking back down and my script. While I've done a page one rewrite in the past, it's always been someone else's material, and this time it's like I'm putting together the puzzle but I can't find any of the edge pieces. I'll figure it out, but it's slow.
At 12:45am, I brushed my teeth and washed my face and tiptoed to the bedroom.
The lamp on my bedside table was still on.
Over the two plus years we'vd lived together, Will and I mostly go to bed at the same time. Nights when I go to bed first, he tells me to turn off the light and get some sleep.
Nights where he goes to bed first, I say the same thing.
Except that he always, always leaves the light on.
It's those small kindnesses that sometimes don't find their way to these pages.
But sometimes they should.